I don't necessarily agree with everything I say.
-Marshall McLuhan

23 December 2010

Explosions OR I should've done air guitar

I had a very weird dream...


First off, the bathroom at Denny's was really, really, really, really awesome. So awesome, I felt bad using the toilets for what they were built for. But they were super awesome!




Anyway, secondly, one staff member in my school's newspaper went on a rampage and a car made a small explosion and a poor kid got hurt. Only one arm was hurt, though! Though my dream made it look very graphic... -.-''


I woke up when I was calling 911 and trying to figure out where I was. 
I woke up, my heart was pounding, and I was cursing myself for still being sucky with addresses. 


And I must have been really jumpy cuz of that dream cuz when my grandmother came out of my bro's room (did I mention that they're here? Cuz I don't remember.) I screamed (as in literally screamed, and with the facial expression of a kid on a rollercoaster) and fell to the floor and nearly cried.


*Sigh*


I think I may have had that dream because that day, I'd read this.
If you're going into surgery soon, don't read it. Please.


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A few days ago, I remembered how in 6th grade, an acting troupe came to our school and put on The Frog Prince.


They came once a year, and well-behaved kids would be chosen from the upper grades to help with props or play minor roles, and I was usually just a set-up person, but that year, a friend and I were chosen to play minor roles.


We were guards and were in the scene where the frog confronts the king about the princess's promise. Our lines consisted of saying, once they affirmed what was promised (A kiss. A kiss? A kiss. A kiss.), "Ew! Gross!"


And then the frog would start singing and the guards had to dance.
I don't remember what I did (apparently, I looked like an idiot), but now I know what I should have done.


I should have used the pole thingy I was holding... and done air guitar. Aah, to think it'd only come to me now.

18 December 2010

Withdrawal, art markers and Civility

I must be reaaaally going through withdrawal from lack of manga. We went to Barnes and Noble yesterday, and they had volumes 5-9 of Nightmare Inspector and I reaaally wanted to buy them, but my mother still wouldn't let me...
She said if I get straight A's this semester, she'd let me buy one...
But we all know that ain't happening.
I just checked, and it hasn't happened.
Aah, I almost feel like crying.
Anyway, that reminder of how much of a failure I am, and the fact that I'd been so close to manga in soo long, I got really, really depressed... 
But then we went to Michael's and I got about $70 of art supplies!


But it still sucks I got such a lousy grade for French.
I wanna cry.....
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Oh, I finally found the book Maurice by E.M. Forster. I've been hesitant to order it online cuz... well, I just don't do it often, and I feel better having the physical book in my hand from the second I purchase it.


It was in one volume with two other books, A Room with a View and Howard's End. I'm reading the other two first, and I'm really liking them. I've yet to read that other book by him I have, The Longest Journey. I really liked the beginning part, where the main character's arguing someone about the existence or nonexistence of a cow.\




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Anyway, I decided I wanted to buy copic markers because I wanted to try them out, but they were, like, six bucks each, so I went and got a 24 pack of Prismacolor art markers. With a coupon, they were about $50. 


They are amazing! 
But they stink.
And there's no good color for skin, which makes me really sad.
In the back of one of my volumes of Switch, the artist said she used copic markers to color the covers, and now I think I know why their skin is so... orange.


But the markers are really nice and I really like them.


BTW, you don't have to read the reaaally long part below this. I just felt like ranting, I'd feel better if you didn't read it.




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Yesterday, I was talking to my friends on Google Wave, and I did something really bold.
After refuting one's claim of being my best friend with a "I don't consider my best friend," she got really angry and called me a liar. I countered that with a "Why do you always refuse to believe me when I'm honest about these things?" but she claimed that whole sentence was a lie. Because she doesn't always refuse to listen to reason (which she does) and she does believe me when I tell her these things (which she doesn't) and what I said wasn't honest (which it was.)


Of course, after feeling slight irritation and a growing headache, I declared, "I can't deal with such unreasonable people. I think I'll just leave now." And I left.


Before that, I had asked, "May I leave?" because, a) I really wanted to leave and b) I wanted to see what their reactions would be if I were to be honest about wanting to leave. 


As you can expect, their reaction was less than pleasant. And somehow, it got into that argument about whether I have a best friend or not (*sigh*) and I knew I'd never be able to win, because logic works never works even when the other side claims to be cool-headed and intelligent, and so I just left.


My other friend, who refuses to step in whenever I get into an argument with the first friend, tried to talk to me on Google chat, but I just ignored it. She also put a YouTube link there, but I didn't feel like clicking it.


Is it really so bad to be straightforward with "friends"? Contrary to what would be expected, it seems to be better to be less honest the closer you are to someone. Whenever I start talking to my friends (these two are really the only ones I talk to online, since my other friends don't seem to be online when I am), it always turns to something very unpleasant, and I seem to be the person who always gets the worst of the blows. I knew it would blow up into something really troublesome, so I just wanted to leave until it reached that point. I'm no good at social graces, even worse when it comes to friends. 


Friend A (the unreasonable one) says her best friends are Friend B (the silent one who never tries to help me) and me. Is it so bad I don't consider her my best friend? Is that really such a sin? I thought we were supposed to be encouraged to say what we really think, but I'm really just so naive to think that;d even work with friends. 


Should I just be kinder to people? It's difficult and troublesome to be kind or unkind, so I try to stay frank and neutral no matter what. But I'm starting to wonder if that's an even worse atrocity than being mean to people. I don't think I'm even that mean anymore. It's cooled down to this jaded, melancholy straightforwardness than I find hard to read. But who knows, maybe other people find me easier to read than I do.


But the thing that bothers me most is that Friend A expects me to keep up with her form of logic while she refuses to accept mine. 


But I guess that's to be expected. 

12 December 2010

I got a new laptop

It's a MacBook Pro. 
"For professionals. Not high schoolers like you," as my father put it.
All I could respond with was, "I'm sorry?" 


I've been doing that a lot lately, the "I'm sorry?" as if I guess I'm sorry might be the correct answer, but I'm not sure, and I don't want to end up sounding like an idiot, but I do anyway because it ends up being a question.


Anyway, moving all my crap was a pain, but I really, really, really like my new computer.
It's so clean and shiny~
But it's heavy.
But it's so shiny~~~~


My grandparents came on Friday. I asked for the Ookiku Furikabutte manga from them, and I was just expecting maybe the first two or three volumes, but they went and got me 14.
Not that I'm complaining, of course. 


Last night, I played Go against my grandfather. My dad said he's probably in the top 1% of amateurs... but I won! Mostly because he helped me through the whole game... but I won! 
And then I played Godori with my bro and grandmother, and I kept losing. Pwah.


But my computer is so shiny~~


Please excuse me while I take this all in. 

05 December 2010

It's amazing how many posts I started writing, forgot about and ended up never publishing or deleting. 


I got very little done this weekend. It's very saddening. On Friday, I thought, "I'll do all my homework today and tomorrow. And I won't have to rush through it next week!" 


But it never happened.
I need to stop procrastinating.
It's very saddening.












Yesterday, my dad go a set of Chinese chess and Go. The board is for Go on one side and for  Chinese chess on the other.


I can't even play western chess so imagine how well I did with the eastern one. 


You have five soldiers, and he can move one space forward or to either side. There are two cannons and they can move anywhere as long as they're jumping over something, but they can't jump over or take another cannon. There are two horses, they go one space straight and one diagonal, two elephants that can go one straight and two diagonal. Two 'cars' and they can go straight any number of rows. There are two knights, and they can move anywhere within a little area of four squares called the "castle" where the king is. They can all move one space within that "castle." 


I really, really suck with the game.


Go is kinda complicated, but I'm better at it than Chinese chess. It's very sad. I can actually beat my bro at it. It was very exciting. But he kept flipping out when I took one of his stones.


*sigh*




And I still have homework to do.


Aah, weekend, where did you go?